Sparkly

As a child, like many others, I had been fed with fairy tales. Be it from books or movies, the plot was always the same

Boy meets Girl, Boy woos Girl (in tamil movies, girl's brother will kill boy because boy is not rich enough) Sparks fly, Boy and Girl wonder off on a horse into happily ever after.

I always sighed at the end and told myself, I will know he's the one when I feel this so called butterfly in my stomach and my heart skips a beat when I hear his name. I am 24 this year and I can say I have never felt any of this sensations. Doesn't mean I never got crushed tho, all the times that I took mild in digestions for 'funny feeling inside..must be love' I just ended up getting flattened by a lawn mover named rejection. Still, unfazed I told myself that I will somehow get that feeling someday, when prince charming will gallantly come and sweep me off my feet. Once again...never happened.

At one point, I became so frustrated I wanted to write an angry email condemning and intending to sue makers of fairy tales for telling lies to children and that there was never a happily ever after. Of course..Hans Christian Andersen don't subscribe to Gmail..so hey, what can a girl do?

After running around circles and growing tired of playing the field I finally met someone. A person whom I felt completely at ease with. Someone I could say whatever I wanted, or behaved however I wanted. I didn't have to shave my legs, or brush my teeth in the mornings before leaning over for a kiss. I could burp, snore (like a lumberjack) but it didn't matter. He just didn't care.

I thought about it, what is this feeling inside me that's lacking, I am not feeling the butterflies, his definitely not prince charming. He doesn't own a horse. He doesn't make my heart skip a beat but yet I feel comfortable Do I need anything else?

We did the run around

Him: I don't feel a spark
Me: So?
Him: So..I don't know?
Me: Do u like Me?
Him: Yes.
Me: Do u wanna give this a go?
Him: (pauses) Ok

SO conclusively, we're giving it a go, not because we're super duper in love and he makes the day brighter or the flowers smell better, but only because the bottom line is, he gets me. and I'd like to think I get him to

O and BTW, this scares the shit out of me.